Musings from the End of Summer... Prelude to Revelations of Late

Well its been a long long time since I've seen you my friend.  How you elude me in these Days of Fear and how you Tease yet Terrify me.  I sit here and can't even gain any perspective. I'm not sure who I am or where I am going or what I am doing.  Cosmic Fog.  I cannot contain the water in my eyes and the feeling of having Lost my way one more time, and again.  I have no one to turn to, to Muse My Pathetic State of Complete and Total Despair.  sweet Escape calls me by Name and Beckons to me to take Up and Leave everything behind.  Where do I even Start? Where does it all end?  When does it Begin?   The Longer you Carry the Load the Heavier it Gets.